Oh boy. Seriously, I do want to record these awesome times. I am here, again, apologizing not only to myself but to anyone who cares to try to follow the Aden family story as told by the ADHD mom that has a serious problem completing what she starts. All the best intentions I guess.
Stu and I were in bed last night having a good heart to heart on my take on my role as wife and mother in a fallen world.
The jist of it being I am ill equipped for any of it. I was raised in a home of one "believer" and one "non" (or that was as simple as it was from my young perspective). We went to church on the major holiday's to show our support (minus dad though) and get a dose of "Jesus" until the next big event. Every once in a while we would make a few random services at varying churches around town but that wouldn't stick for long.
I was raised an only child, in a nice suburban middle class neighborhood where there were plenty of other kids for me to play with; and it was still safe enough for us to roam our street (it was a very long dead-end at the time).
My point: I have been blessed with four beautiful boys, and here I am with the knowledge that they can and will be great "soldiers" for the Lord, but how? Me? I'm supposed to be able to train them up? I don't have a male in my life that I grew up knowing even believed in Jesus, let alone lived a life for him. I have no siblings to have a point of reference as to how to raise a set of four on how to get along and love each other. And, of course, I'm not a boy and without so much as a brother (although I did have one that didn't survive more than his first 5 weeks on earth, RIP Jeffrey Adam), my cousins were all girls (I do have a token boy or two in there but they're either much younger or not one we saw much), I have to rely solely on my observation and research as to how this male human works....
So here I go, wish me luck. Better yet, pray for me. I know I have all I need in Jesus and his word but I have so much to learn and yet teach at the same time. This is too important not to finish though.
